the tragic kingdom

this weekend is going to be a rough one.  who am i kidding?  this WEEK was a rough one.  my body basically shut down on me and told me i needed SLEEP.   in a big way.  but this weekend?  ugh.

tomorrow, we're going to Disneyland.  it's an early birthday present for little one.  and i've never been there.  and i do not relish the usual fast food choices.  i know they've gotten better in recent years, but after yesterday's falafel meltdown?  i don't know what to do.  i may just have to salad it all day long.  and that gets WAY TOO BORING.  and i do mean B O R I N G.  there's so much more to being a vegetarian or vegan than salad.  why hasn't the world caught on to that?

and then it's halloween weekend with the family in california.  which means lots of candy and treats for the little ones.  daughter and grandson will be spoiled, as they should be on occasions such as this.  it's going to be the first time we've all been together since my brother-in-law's ashes were released at sea, so it's a happy occasion, and we need to make it such.  costumes, party games, haunted houses, all kinds of halloween fun on a mountain in the middle of a national forest.  how much fun can that be?  TONS OF FUN!

i'm just really looking forward to seeing everyone.  and i haven't always been in that frame of mind.  but i'm really, really happy to be going.  i'll try my best, but if i fail to eat the best i can, i fail.  tomorrow is another day.  i know i'm not getting any younger, and the faster i accomplish my goals of getting my diet switched over, the better quality of life i'll experience.  but i can't keep tearing myself down because i had a cheeseburger.  but i am having cheeseburgers a bit too often for my liking.  i've got to work on that.

i'm not packed, but everything is sort of in it's place.  i've got a few good books to read on the way, and i need to get to sleep.  i've been up 4 hours longer than i should have been.  my body is going to slam me up against a wall again, if i don't watch it.  i'm going to miss the wind.  i've grown quite fond of the wind we've been having here in the desert.  and the temps.  we're going from mild 70's, low 80's to almost 90's.  not liking that.  but it's Disneyland, the happiest place on earth....with the worst food,  oh, please, let me find some chick peas or kidney beans.  or at least johnny depp.